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A Closer Bond
Dec 04, 2002
My husband and I were married on August 3, 2002. We were not trying to conceive, but we were not going to prevent anything from happening. Well much to our surprise I was pregnant as of October 7th. My 1st test was slow to show a very faint positive, so I took another one first thing the next morning. Still not certain, I went to the OB/Gyn for the official results. My husband refused to believe that the two home tests were correct. I called him to let him know the results and he had mixed emotions. Nervous and excited we told our family and friends. All of which were excited. My best friend and my sister had just told us a month earlier that they were both expecting. I was so excited to have someone to share the experience with. It was going to be so much fun to go through this with my two closest girlfriends.
At my first OB visit, I had been scheduled at 8 wks instead of 10 wks so they were just going to weigh me, take my BP and send my husband and me home. I let them know that my last period lasted only a few hours and was Very light. Could I have already been pregnant? They checked for a heartbeat and couldn’t hear it. So they sent me to ultrasound. There, we got to see our baby and his little heartbeat. According to the ultrasound I was 7wks & 2 days. According to my last period I was 8 wks & 5 days. My Dr. wanted to see me back in three weeks for my first pelvic exam.
We never got that far. A week later on Wednesday, at 8 wks and 2days I started to spot and called the nurse. She said this was normal as long as there were no cramps. There weren’t any until Saturday. Then the cramps woke me up that morning. I took Tylenol and rested all day. The cramps were in my back so I just thought it was back pain. The medicine did not help, and we called our Dr. He told me I could wait to see him on Monday or go on to the ER. I couldn’t wait.
At the ER we had an ultrasound, which revealed that my uterus was empty. We were devastated. I couldn’t even think straight and my husband who I wasn’t sure wanted a baby asked when we could try again. This was the moment that I realized how much I love my husband and how much he loves me. At my weakest moment he knew what to ask the Dr. for me. I couldn’t believe it, it was like he knew what I was thinking. He was amazing. He called our family and friends. He took off work to be with me for as long as I needed. We have done more together and have become closer and he truly wants a baby now.
Today is our 4 month wedding anniversary and I feel a great bond between us that wasn’t there before. We got a card from one of our friends and she wrote that all things happen for a reason and that it was in Gods plan. I believe that this was planned to bring us closer together. I have faith that our bond will bring us a baby, as soon as physically possible, and that God has planned for a baby to come now that we are emotionally and spiritually ready. We are hopeful that our time will be here soon.
I pray that God keep us strong mentally and physically as we try again. I am hopeful that my nerves will be at ease when we do conceive so that our pregnancy will be a healthy one. I also thank God for leading me to this site. It has helped a great deal.
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