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Three Special Little Boys
Mar 16, 2002
It only seems like yesterday we finally heard the words "You're Pregnant" after so many years of trying to start the family we long for. Last Oct we conceived triplet boys through insemination and now after a few very long months of heartache we sit alone. January 15 we lost our first son at 12 weeks who suddenly stopped developing and yet we were left with 2 healthy boys - or so they said. It was hard to simply have him "disappear" on ultrasound. After a week of what we now know were contractions I delivered our second son suddenly at home at 2am Janary 25 at 14 weeks. I then developed placenta previa and lost all remainging amniotic fluid in our last sons amniotic sac. We made the devastating choice at the request of specialists to have a D&E as our last son was no longer developing and would not survive. Sadly we did not make it our appointment and developed prolapse cord. I again went into labour and delivered our last little boy at 12:45am February 23 at 18weeks. Everything has been a daze since then and I ache terribly for the lives we have lost. It seems hard for people to understand that we lost "children" that were very real to us even though not yet born. I miss them and long for them every day more and more. They were my whole life and now I feel empty. Nothing will ever take away the pain or replace our boys. Seems the only thing I have to look forward to is trying again (May 2002). Someday our miracle will happen...
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