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Feeling Hopeless
Oct 08, 2002
I had a miscarriage over 2 years ago now but it was at the time when my boyfriend had just had a massive heart attack. So I had to get on with things. Soon after that time he said he didn't feel we were getting on and instead of being there to comfort and support me be abandoned me emotionally. We now live apart, and have been desperately trying to get back together but I can't forgive him as I am now nearly 43 years old and feel I may have lost the chance to ever become a mother. This is coupled with terrific guilt that I had an abortion over 7 years ago, pregnant by the same boyfriend, as we were just starting our relationship and it was not a good time to start a family. I feel now that I am being paid back for that abortion by having this miscarriage and that I will never become a mother. I am finding it hard to remain positive about anything in my life and feel emotionally hopeless.
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