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My Body Failed
Oct 01, 2002
I am 36 years old. I started having children while still quite young, and had two before finishing college at 22. In between the births of my two daughters, I had a miscarriage at 7 weeks. Following the birth of my second daughter, i had another early miscarriage. A decade passed, my husband succumbed to cancer, and i found myself remarried. At 33, we decided to have more children. I quickly got pregnant, and then had a miscarriage at 11 weeks. It was horrible. It sent me spiraling into depression. Six months later, i conceived again and we had a baby girl. Score: 3 girls, 3 miscarriages. Now my daughter is two years old. We decided to have one more child. I immediately got pregnant, and stupidly told everyone, including my teenage daughters, now 15 and 16 years old. We were all so excited and even started decorating the nursery. On Sunday, I had my FOURTH miscarriage at 6 weeks. I cried for a day and now I am just really angry, mostly at myself. I thought i did everything right. I have been taking prental vitamins with 800 mcg of folic acid for a year. I eat right, do not touch alcohol, drugs, caffeine... not even a tylenol. Very frustrating. I did not have a D&C with any of my miscarriages, so I will be going to get my blood levels monitored. I plan to try again after a "normal" cycle but i am terrified. I don't have any problems getting pregnant, it is just a huge problem staying pregnant. Now that i am in that "over 35" group, i am doubly worried. My doc told me to double the dose of folic acid to 1.6 mg. I am wondering if anyone else has tried that? I found a site by the CDC that said pregnant women with a history of neural tube defects or repeated miscarriages should consider taking 4 mg, that seems like a TON to me. My doc has pretty much ruled out everything except chromosomal problems. I had no infections, no hormonal problems, etc. Right now i am just angry and frustrated and upset at my body's failings. :-(
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