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My Twin Boys
Oct 04, 2002
I gave birth this year in June. My twin boys, Matthew and Brian were not due until September. They spent all their days in the NICU and were the highlight of my life. Brian was a character from day one. He loved to put his feet completely in the air and wave them around. He became in love with the pacifiers they gave him right from the get go. In July, Brian came down with an infection and we thought we had lost him that day. However, he seemed to recover or was still in the process of recovering almost a month later when a second infection hit. He went into renal failure within 2 weeks of the infection starting. He died in mid-August. Matthew was a calmer child until after Brian died and then he seemed to pick up Brian's traits. Matthew however loved when I just placed my hand on the side of his head. He would calm down completely. Most of the time, Matthew was in good health. He had minor infections. A week after his brother died, his lungs started to have more and more trouble and at the end of August his lungs could no longer push the air in and out properly and he passed away. We were able to hold both boys at the time their hearts actually stopped beating and that has been such a blessing. I feel like I got lucky because from the day they were both born you knew their personalities so well. The hospital staff seemed to adore them even when they seemed to set every alarm in the place off because they both loved to squirm that their ventilator machines would think that they were not getting the proper amount of oxygen. I loved them both and am having such a hard time coping with the fact that they are no longer here. Everything in my life has been affected, including my faith.
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