So Alone

So Alone
LindaC

I feel so very alone right now.
I can be in a crowded store and aloneness sweeps over me.
It is such a cold, empty feeling deep inside.
I long to feel warm and full again.

So many people I am in contact with,
And yet I cannot bring myself to reach out to them.
I don't want to impose on their lives.
They are not there to babysit me and my fears.

I am so terribly scared.
I am fearful of yet another loss.
My mind wanders to thoughts too terrible to express
I am scared of being alone.

Why am I in this dark and lonely place.
Will I ever find my way into the light again?
How do I get through the empty days?
I don't want to be alone.