Three Months Chapter II

Three Months Chapter II
LindaC

I feel sick. It is all a result of stress.
Three months. I thought all this would be past.
Everyone tells you not to stress,
But how do I do that? I just don't know!

It is not a simple matter.
I seem to have no control.
I cry over the smallest thing.
A hastily spoken word will reduce me to tears.

I need to be in control of my emotions.
I am getting better but have a long way to go.
I feel so weak when I break down.
I don't want to cry in front of my friends.

Friends understand and are a comfort.
How long will they put up with me?
It must be difficult to deal with me.
At times I can't stand myself.

I feel like I am a drain, I do nothing but take.
I want to be the person to support others.
It is so hard to take from my friends.
I just want to make them feel that I am fine.

Getting a handle on this is difficult.
Each day the struggle starts over.
If I can just get through today
There is hope for surviving tomorrow.