The Bad Place

The Bad Place
LindaC

I have been in a bad place for it seems so long.
I am terrified of what my emotions are doing to me.
How long will friends put up with this constant upheaval?
Will they write me off and go on with their lives?

I am a drain on my friends.
They must be so tired of me.
I am no fun to be around.
It is like walking on egg shells for them.

I don't want to do this to my friends.
I am so afraid of losing them.
Nobody understands what I am going through.
They can't understand how hopeless I feel.

I need my friends, especially now.
I feel so very, very alone.
My feelings hit me out of the blue
It is hard for others to understand.

One moment I'm laughing and happy.
And then with a blink the sadness overwhelms.
It hurts so bad, I am in so much pain.
The bad place calls to me and I sink again.