Vicki and Dennis, My Friends

HI my name is Helen Dimond i have 5 children they are my life i would die for them i was verry young whan i had my children Vicki Dennis Scott Wendy Tammy I lost Vivki with cancer 2001 i wanted to die she is 36 beautfull women my friend my daugher 2001 11 weeks later i lost my other best friend Dennis 35 i'm not me any more had a brake down been in hospital 3 times can't sleep forget ever thing can't do any thing have cried every day hated god hate all bad people i'm a mess i miss them there is days i wan't to go be with them i wish i could understand why. Maby some one is out here that can help me Mom to Vicki and Dennis HELP