Perceptions

Perceptions
LindaC

Feelings are quickly hurt
Unintentional pain is caused
It was not meant to hurt me
It is how I perceived it.

I withdraw into my shell
I put up an invisible shield to protect myself
I feel avoided and abandoned
My emotions are out of kilter

I ask myself what a friend really meant
Why did they say what they did?
Or worse, why didn't they respond
Anything would be better than nothing.

I am very difficult to be friends with right now
it is hard to know how to handle me
I am prickly, weepy, hurting
I hurt so terribly bad, please don't give up on me.

I am trying to find my way back into life
I must seek out new friends
I'll need them when I have chased my other friends away.
Once again I am feeling the hurt

My perceptions cause me great pain
With my actions I cause friends to desert me.
I'm not aware of what I'm doing
Until it's too late.