Confusion

Confusion
LindaC

Washed adrift in a sea of confusion
Will I ever reach the shore?
Why is a question oft asked.
How do I do this alone?

I stand outside myself
And reflect on a life that is past.
Where did I go wrong?
I feel so very alone.

Nothing I do now will change things.
Nothing will bring my son back.
There are so many if onlys.
And guilt eats away at my mind.

I did the very best that I could.
That is not enough for now.
A curtain of darkness drops over my mind
And I am wracked in pain.

So confused, so hurt, so much guilt.
I am burdened and filled with pain.
Washed adrift in a sea of confusion
And I drown once again.